I’ve had to process something quite significant in my life alongside the trauma associated with the loss of my family. Something that most daughters would confide in their parents for; something I’m unable to do due to the estrangement. I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). PTSD isn’t all in ones head! Kardiner … Continue reading Trauma
Every text, every email, every message you asked someone to pass on, Every letter, every voice note and every voicemail left over the last five years that you either sent to me directly, or through a third party has had the overwhelming ability to completely shatter me. “You will NEVER AGAIN have the power to … Continue reading Growth, strength and Resilience are my superpowers what’s yours?
via Easter 2020 in lockdown ... an insight from someone estranged from family ...
For five years I have not celebrated Easter with my family. I have no contact with my parents or my younger siblings. How will I get through this whilst being “stuck” in isolation. I was disowned by my parents in 2016 and in April 2017 I chose to estrange myself from them. Not only for … Continue reading Easter 2020 in lockdown … an insight from someone estranged from family …
I have contemplated numerous times about all the things I would say to you if I were ever able to sit down with you and just speak. But going off the past that would never happen would it? How it would play out is that I would sit and listen and you would talk AT … Continue reading An open letter to my dad …..
Recently I was nominated for an inspirational woman award and honestly I was shocked that somebody felt I was deserving of such a nomination. I was asked to provide a little extra information for the judging panel to go alongside the information they already had that my nominator (who remained anonymous) provided. I was contemplating … Continue reading Inspirational Woman
We live in a society which understands it is acceptable to go no contact with a partner when the relationship breaks down. A society which understands that friendships can also fall apart and no contact is too an option; but we are yet to live in a society which understands that relationships with family … Continue reading 13 Phrases a person estranged from their father does NOT need to hear this coming father’s day …..
Do you know that feeling when you see something you weren't prepared to see? That feeling of surreal shock, quickly followed by self-judgement because why on earth had you not prepared yourself? You knew it was coming, it comes round every year. Why would this year be any different? It felt almost as if all … Continue reading Surviving A Fatherless Father’s Day ….
My great aunt sadly passed away just before Christmas 2017. She was 90 years of age and often said she wouldn't change a single part of her life! She was very special to me and I often spent afternoons with her drinking tea with evaporated milk, eating cake and far too many Werther's originals! She … Continue reading The effect estrangement has when a family member passes away.
Just as I feel like I have recovered from Christmas with the societal focus on family WHAM mother's day hits! Another challenge I have to face, another hurdle I need to cross another mountain to climb! You know what? I am exhausted it seems like a constant test, a constant fight, the longest game of … Continue reading Surviving a motherless mother’s day ….