I have contemplated numerous times about all the things I would say to you if I were ever able to sit down with you and just speak. But going off the past that would never happen would it? How it would play out is that I would sit and listen and you would talk AT … Continue reading An open letter to my dad …..
Recently I was nominated for an inspirational woman award and honestly I was shocked that somebody felt I was deserving of such a nomination. I was asked to provide a little extra information for the judging panel to go alongside the information they already had that my nominator (who remained anonymous) provided. I was contemplating … Continue reading Inspirational Woman
We live in a society which understands it is acceptable to go no contact with a partner when the relationship breaks down. A society which understands that friendships can also fall apart and no contact is too an option; but we are yet to live in a society which understands that relationships with family … Continue reading 13 Phrases a person estranged from their father does NOT need to hear this coming father’s day …..
Do you know that feeling when you see something you weren't prepared to see? That feeling of surreal shock, quickly followed by self-judgement because why on earth had you not prepared yourself? You knew it was coming, it comes round every year. Why would this year be any different? It felt almost as if all … Continue reading Surviving A Fatherless Father’s Day ….
My great aunt sadly passed away just before Christmas 2017. She was 90 years of age and often said she wouldn't change a single part of her life! She was very special to me and I often spent afternoons with her drinking tea with evaporated milk, eating cake and far too many Werther's originals! She … Continue reading The effect estrangement has when a family member passes away.
Just as I feel like I have recovered from Christmas with the societal focus on family WHAM mother's day hits! Another challenge I have to face, another hurdle I need to cross another mountain to climb! You know what? I am exhausted it seems like a constant test, a constant fight, the longest game of … Continue reading Surviving a motherless mother’s day ….
Being estranged events such as my mothers birthday ALWAYS cause me anxiety on the build up and the day itself. I start to feel guilty weeks, and sometimes months in advance because I will not be seeing her. As empowered as I feel making my decision of estrangement and giving myself permission to remove people … Continue reading My Mum’s Birthday.